THE HIGHER YOU GET, THE HIGHER YOU GET.

THE HIGHER YOU GET, THE HIGHER YOU GET.

Once upon a time…

I was an athlete…

I trained every day to be better than I was the day before. And like all other stories, some how, some way, that changed. I stopped training and quite frankly caring. I quit my sport like so many others and here I am.

I can no longer do a pull up, I can no longer lift heavy weight, I am no longer strong.

I could be sad and regret my decisions. I could never train again. I could go into a downward spiral that only gets worse. But I’ve decided that I am in a very good place. How can I possibly see this as good? How can I accept that it is my, and only my fault that I am where I am? How can I face the challenge ahead of me? How could this be any worse for that matter??

Right now, today…I am at rock bottom. I am probably a good twenty pounds over weight, I feel weaker than ever, and I can no longer call myself and athlete…at least I can admit that. But today, I got stronger, because I started the journey.

“The journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step” Today I took the first step of many on the journey of a thousand miles…actually the journey of a lifetime, of my life. I went to the gym and I did the work (maybe not what I would have even considered work in the past, but work for today). Today is, like all other days the beginning of the rest of my life, and I have no where to go but up. The struggle of fitness, health, and sanity is on going…for ever.

For the rest of my life, I will be at war…Every day that I get up, show up, and do what I know I should, is another small battle won in the war of health and fitness. When I’ve ever been on top of the world and in the best shape of my life, I realize there is still more to be done. I realize that although I’m doing better than I ever have before, I can still improve…there is always, always, always more.

In the struggle of health the only motto is that the higher you get, the higher you get… So here today, I begin the journey back to many things…my strength, my fitness, my goals, my dreams…my life.

Back when I created and named my blog “The Journey To Something Better” I was trying to become something better than I was, and I did do that. But, saying the journey to something better feels as though I will be forever looking at the grass on the other side. And though some times the grass seems greener, or maybe it even is, on the other side, I want to see that whatever I have here, is here because I have made it what it is. Instead of the journey to something better and not knowing what that is, this is the journey of finding myself, of being the best person I can be, of taking everything in with an open heart and mind, of learning what is good, of seeing what I am capable of.

I vow to be better tomorrow than I was today. I vow to accept my flaws for what they are, but to never give up on improving upon them. I vow to be present for this journey, because I am only blessed with one. I promise not to be so deep all the time, but for now I kind of need to be this way…I am going to allow myself to be nothing other than that, myself! I am on the journey to the rest of my life…and I’ll be damned if I don’t enjoy it.